absence 00:11:03 on Sunday, January 17 2010

I've wanted to blog but haven't had coherent words and sentences... 2010 got off to a bumpy start.  There have been some really great times and friendship and laughter, however I have struggled.  And wanting you to know that I am a human being who acknowledges struggle I am telling you that. 

I have not written although I have tried to.  I have composed blog posts and then deleted them.  I won't delete this. Brace yourself for a mini-Al-rant! 

I had a fabulous NYE - with wonderful friends.  Such fun and so much laughter.  Walking home it all turned sour.  I am a very lucky girl, that is the important thing.  I live in a safe and caring place but I experienced something that could have gone totally wrong. I found out the following day that I was not alone.  Some of my friends went through terror just as I did,  caused by the same person who terrorised me.  I went into my shell, for a little while, didn't know what to say to anyone, friends around here or anyone - I didn't even speak to my nearest and dearest - in time I opened up, and they were amazing.  They always are - why do I try to protect them - why do I hide? 

It's been a matter that the Police are dealing with - not because of me but because of several incidents that same night.  They have been amazing and supportive, and we'll move on. 

As an aside - or three! - I have been ill ill ill.  I don't do ill!  Coughs and sneezes and sniffing diseases.  I ended up in the doctors surgery a couple of days ago (doc-o-phobic Al) in such pain - I've torn a muscle from coughing and ouch it hurt.  But we are officially on the mend now :o)

And the snow.  Ohhhh, the snow.  It has been extraordinary and very beautiful, but you know what, when you are self-employed and work involves travel, it's a nightmare!  I have had about 10 days on the trot where every single day had business booked and every day was cancelled.  Schools talks.  Client meetings.  And starting up new pilates classes.  Delete delete delete... Yick!  Some will be re-scheduled, the rest I just have to agree to write-off.

That is the rant over, and some sort of an explanation for being non-blog.  I've decided tht the New Year has actually not started yet.  Springback declares Monday 18th as the first day of a new beginning.  I am more than willing to start all over again then.   You too?

Al

Comments

Pooky - 17/01/2010 04:58:11

Happy new new year Al Starting again certainly sounds like a good idea. I share your pain re postponed and cancelled events as we are in the process of moving around 200 delegates onto new events (when I''m not working on the PhD I''m the MD of Creative Education''s training division providing CPD for school staff). Due to little Lyra Im directing from afar and thankfully work with an amazing team who are doing a great job of reorganising things - but we certainly hope we''ve seen the end of the snow.

I hope the police resolve the other matter and that you''re able to find some inner peace over it. Again, sadly, I can relate to you on this one - though as a terrified 14 year old I didn''t have the sense or courage to involve the police - or in fact tell anyone. Not a good decision - it was half my life ago and I still feel the occasional reverberations now.

I hope your new new year will get off to a better start and will prove to be a happy year which makes you happy and does you proud.

With very best wishes. Pooky

Al C - 25/08/2010 02:16:55

"Said person" has, so I hear, just been issued with an ASBO. I will not be the only person around here who feels marginally safer. We all move on, I know I have - but it stays at the back of your mind nonetheless, and this is reassuring news. Al

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